Again, this wasn't meant to be an attack. If you can't explain your beliefs in simple terms, they're not your beliefs.. I didn't ask you to write those words, you wrote them of your own accord, but they're not really yours.
Words like "relief" or the parts that you "like" shouldn't come into this. Self examination is often deeply uncomfortable andforces one to admit things about themselves they don't like at all.
I'm not saying that's a necessary part of the journey. Maybe you aren't racist at all. But using words and ideas that bring you comfort as a guide, especially words that you haven't deeply interrogated, is not a path to meaningful progress.