All I'm saying is that while you're bouncing around, you don't have a perspective yet. You're repeating the words others have told you to say and presenting them as your own. I realised this as soon as I read your response, which is why I asked you to explain it, and why I'm not surprised that you can't.
Please understand, this isn't an attack or meant to be accusatory. The fact that you're trying to understand at all is important and if you aren't directly affected by an issue, the only way you can learn is to expose yourself to a variety of ideas. This is all good and sincerely commendable.
But before you can be genuinely helpful, you need to integrate those varying ideas into a framework that is your own. You need to be able to defend your own ideas in your own words. Otherwise, how can you have any confidence that you're helping?
I see too many people mindlessly repeating Kendi's or Di'Angelo's words right down to the syntax. I happen to disagree with both of them in very significant ways. I think that a lot of what they're peddling is actively harmful to the aim of ending racism. Many black scholars agree. They set up their arguments ina way that if you disagree, the only option available is that you're racist. This is, to put it as politely as I can, bullshit.
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe they are, I'm just encouraging you to ensure that you think for yourself. That's the best any of us can do.