I'm not trying to dictate the validity of your feelings, obviously, but this sounds a long way from a “deeply felt, internal and individual experience of gender," to me. It sounds like a collection of perfectly normal feelings, that I think everybody has some variation of, that you're looking to place into a specific box.

If anything, what you're describing sounds simply like a personality. Unique to you, with elements in common and contrast with lots of other people, that can't really be defined any meaningful way. I think everybody has the same experience. But no two people have the same one.