No I'm not. I'm switching to "you're not really listening, and the comparisons you're making are so asinine that I don't know where to even begin". If this is the way you were talking to whoever else it was about racism, I have a better understanding of why they got frustrated with you.

You're not treating this as an opportunity to learn something or understand, you're treating it as an opportunity to argue and make bizarre nonsensical comparisons to contraception pills and patdowns at airports.

This isn't about your identity or whether you can understand mine at all. It's about whether you're trying to. If you haven't even given enough thought to these issues to realise that half of the things you've said here are absolutely ridiculous, I don't think there's much I can do to help you via a comment section on the internet.

if you live in the US, that's great. Go and meet some black people. Spend time with them. DO NOT share some of the disastrous takes you've shared with me about racism. DO NOT call them "negroids". Visit black owned businesses and restaurants. Places where you'll meet a range of black people. Talk to them. Listen to them. I honestly wish you luck, but you won't ever learn anything if you're not really listening.