No! This is your fear talking. I grew up believing it because it's true. Yet I don't feel the least bit aggreived or spiteful. I've had a very nice life despite being descended from slaves. My parents had it much harder. My grandparents even harder.

I don't have any problem with white people. I'm outspoken against the current climate of blaming all of society's ills on white people or using the phrase "whiteness" as a pejorative (that's actually the subject of an upcoming article). I understand, likely better than you do, the harm that comes from treating an entire group of people as a monolith on the basis of their skin colour.

You've bought into the idea that this is a zero sum game and it's not. I recognise that black people have been unfairly disadvantaged in the past. I recognise that white people today aren't responsible for that. I recognise that attempts to correct the wrong done to black people are necessary but the aim shouldn't be to punish white people. It's possible to hold all of these ideaas in one's head at the same time. But white people have had the monopoly on opportunity pretty much forever. For that to change, something has to give.

I forgot who it was, but somebody once said, "when you're used to 100%, 90% feels like oppression". As uncomfortable as it sems to be for you, it's time to take a look around and realise that life is less fair for some people and that that isn't right.