The reason you're not sure why I want to be an apologist for racist cops is that I obviously don't want to be an apologist for racist cops. The idea is absurd. Not a single word I’ve written even hints in this direction.

But because it's the only explanation that allows you to stick your fingers in your ears and say "lalala," you're stuck trying to find an explanation for that absurdity instead of considering that maybe you haven't developed an accurate understanding of the situation by scrolling Twitter and skimming the first few lines of studies.

But what if, and stay with me here, I disagree with you, not because I want racist cops to kill black people like myself, but because I know what I’m talking about and you don’t? I've spent quite a lot of time doing actual research into this issue. Whereas you, apparently, aren't even willing to read a single paper.

There's no point in trying to have a conversation with somebody who ignores facts. It's exactly as futile as arguing with Trump supporters or flat Earthers. So sure, reality itself is gaslighting. The lengths people will go to to stay in their bubbles is nothing short of depressing.